“Was I wrong wearing my heart on my sleeve?”
“Where did I go wrong in loving you?“
These questions run through my mind when I reminisce all the moments I had to act like everything was okay.
This is how my love life started. It was all roses waking up in his arms; cuddling, caressing and kissing each other with so much passion.
He did all the right things in a perfect way. Who would have thought I would live with a monster one day?
He was in a rush for us to walk to the altar. My mom told me to take my time to know him better because we had been together for just 8 months. But I told her that he was the one I wanted to spend my life with. She was surprised with my comment but nothing could she do. All she said was “Okay, if you say he is the man you want to spend your life with I don’t have anything to say but don’t run back when things start to explode” She sighed heavily.
Lawrence (I normally called him Law) came to see my parents to formally ask for my hand in marriage but my dad objected to it because he felt we were rushing and we needed to take our time to get to know each other better. He sounded just like my mom. With his persuasiveness, Law managed to convince my dad and so our wedding date was fixed for next month. We started preparing for it… from buying the wedding dress and suits to looking for someone for our decor. We just wanted to have a perfect and memorable wedding. Although we didn’t want a big ceremony, we wanted something that would be imprinted in our hearts forever.
About two weeks to our wedding, Law started acting strange. He was no longer picking my calls and he was always lost in thought. I reasoned he was experiencing cold feet so I let him be. Hmmm… everyone saw the red flags expect me. I walked on blinded by love.
Somewhere down the line, I called Law and told him that I was coming over. He responded while panting “Don’t come, I will be at your place tomorrow”
“Where are you? And why are you panting as if you have been running?” I spontaneously quizzed.
“I’m not home and I’m really busy at the moment so we can talk when I get home, please Nana”
But the detective in me wasn’t convinced so I went to his house to know what I was missing. When I got there his lights were on, soft music was playing in the hall and the door was locked. I just sighed wondering what had come over me to doubt Law in this manner. As I turned to leave, I heard voices. One sounded like Law but the other was unmistakably the voice of a female.
Almost involuntarily, I reached for the spare key from my purse, opened the door and walked straight into the bedroom. My fears were confirmed; they were right before me, stark naked. I was dumbfounded. I didn’t know what to do so I ran from the scene as fast as I could. He pursued me asking for the chance to explain himself. But I wasn’t ready for any of the lies anymore; no, not after what I saw.
I took an Uber to my best friend’s house because I didn’t want my parents to know about what happened. When I got there, Jonna, my best friend, hugged me tightly. My tears started flowing freely, wetting my cheeks. She asked what was wrong but I couldn’t speak. I choked with tears and I didn’t know the words to mumble. She just held me to her chest and asked me to cry it all out. “I’m here with you, and I won’t leave you so cry it all out. When you’re ready, tell me what happened” Jonna reassured me.
Law called me an hour later but I refused to talk to him. Jonna with a puzzled look enquired “Ah hubby is calling, why ain’t you picking? Or is he the reason why you are crying?” I nodded and wiped my tears.
“Jonna, he has pierced my heart with a poisonous arrow. I don’t think I can forgive him” These were my words which made Jonna more confused.
“What exactly did he do to you? Has he called off the wedding? Has he cheated on you “Jonna was trying so hard to know what really happened.
“Yes, he has cheated on me. He lied to me and played with my emotions”
When I told her all that happened her blood boiled with rage, “I knew he was not good for you but I didn’t know how to tell you. I didn’t want you to feel that I was your enemy. But all the same, I’m glad he has shown his true colours before the marriage. Cancel this marriage because he has nothing to offer you, Nana”
Law continued to call countlessly but I didn’t pick up. My mom finally called to ask where I was. I told her my whereabouts and she asked me why I sounded so low and worried but I told her that I was okay. She finally said “Law is here looking for you. He said he has been calling you several times but you ain’t answering. Is everything okay? Are you having cold feet?”
I just sighed and said I would be home soon.
She gave the phone to Law to speak with me. When I heard his voice I just ended the call.
I told Jonna I had to go home. Although she didn’t like the idea, I explained to her that going home was the only way to make my parents to quit worrying.
Restpiration 